One of the other people I have reconnected with is the skier who I was just starting to see a couple of years ago.

I reach out to him on OkC and see if he is still around. He texts me back and we make arrangements to meet up for a bite.

I struggle to find a place of us to eat – he is vegan – and I don’t eat grains. So finally I find a mexican place that does bowls.

We meet and hug and have a nice meal and catch up. He dated one of mr. charisma’s ex’s for about a year during this time. Apparently, he keeps following in the wake of mr charisma – his best friend and ex sees him occasionally, I see him and his latest ex was mr. charisma’s ex.

Unfortunately, mr. charisma is way more dominant and a much more forceful personality.

We have nice conversation and he is cute and we kiss a bunch after dinner as he walks me to the bus stop.

I end up seeing him again a couple weeks later. I have tickets to a club dj and burlesque event so I take him. He comes by the house and we sit and talk a bit. I know he wants to make out and have sex but I am totally not feeling it from him.

He’s kind of wishy washy and timid and I am not responding well to that. Plus he’s a but shorter than I like. We make out a little then go to the club.

We end up spending the whole evening upstairs on the balcony which had the best view for the show part of the evening  but not so great for dancing.

He wasn’t forceful in asking me to dance or even suggesting to dance so I actually didn’t really dance. He also wasn’t super talkative. The event was cool but the date felt forced and like we weren’t connecting well at all.

So I let him take me home and I kissed him goodbye but didn’t invite him back in.

A couple of days later I texted him a nice note that I wasn’t really feeling the same connection that I had felt the first time around. I have obviously changed and want something different. I want to be more true to myself and if I’m not into someone, I don’t want to waste the little time I have available on situations and people that aren’t doing it for me just in case things grow. 

I want more connection at the beginning the I am feeling with skier so I pass.