we meet on okc and text a little bit. we set a date a week out and then I have a cancelation so  we move it up a week. I choose my go-to place and when I get there, he is already there.

He’s a little smarmier in real life than in his picture. He’s got some sort of accent that isn’t just NY which is where is from. But he’s lived out here for 20+ years – same time I came out.

We talk and the conversation moves into my sexual exploits – he keeps asking questions and I’ve had enough to drink to be open. We move from one of the high tables to the lower couches and talk some more, facing each other.

He leans in to kiss me and his mouth is super wet and slimy and he smells kind of funny. He is also holding me tight so I can’t get away. Finally I’m able to push him away.

Too grabby and pushy for my tastes – when I am highly attracted to someone I don’t mind the grabbing but the grabbing possessiveness he displayed was like when ______ used to grab me and hold me tight like he was afraid to let me go.

We talk a bit more and then I say I need to go. We go out, I call a car, and he gives me another wet slimy kiss goodbye.

Today he texted and said he had fun kissing me and that we should play together and I wouldn’t be sorry. I kindly told him no thank you and that I wasn’t feeling the connection in the way I think he is and that i didn’t want to see him again. 

I hate writing the blow off texts but it is nice than ghosting which I’ve done to a couple of people who were too creepy to me.